Dancing With God....little by little

2011-05-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

Exams are nearing and the pressure is on. it doesn't help that Brian's counting down...lol luckily I don't see him every day like how Cheryl does. Well God has been very consistent this past week in reminding me that salvation isn't through works. Amen to that!!! It first came up during Joey's teaching on Philippians during lifegroup on Friday and then during Pastor Bryan's sermon on Sat. Hmm...too much of a coincidence right!!!!

Another thing that I've been wondering about this past week is the gift of tongues. I've been asking myself the reason behind my desire for it. Is it because of peer pressure? Is it because I want self gratification? Or is it because I desire to have a closer relationship with God? Well...I'm still in the midst of sorting that out and I know we should always ask for things with the rift attitude and mindset. I acknowledge that God is Sovereign and will do what He thinks is right and good for me in His own time. My attitude now is that of God I desire it and if You think it is right, you'll give it to me but if You don't I'm fine with it.

Another thing on my heart is Unidas. Though I haven't been attending Hope Church Brisbane for long but I feel that it is worth investing in Unidas. It is because I see the value in it and I share the heartbeat and vision of wanting to impact the community. I do not know how log my stay in Australia will be but I want to leave a legacy behind and I know I can do that through Unidas. It's an exciting journey with God and I'll see where He'll lead me to next.

2011-05-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

I wish I could scream at u, I wish I could tell u how I feel and I wish all this was a dream that I could wake up from...but in reality I can't scream at u, I can't tell u how I feel and all this is the reality that I've got to face..cos I can't bear the consequences...

Facing everything alone, acting as though everything's ok...well it just sucks ttm. I wished that I never knew him and I could erase him so that this pain can just go away...if only u knew how I feel. If u held on longer maybe my answer would have been different but...u were never available in the first place and that's what hurts me the most...

I got the memo now but it wasn't from u...couldn't u have the decentcy to tell me? Why must u stir up feelings in me when u were never available in the first place?

My first post of 2011!

2011-04-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

I've decided that I should update my blog...and chronicle about my new life in Brisbane. Well it's actually a suggestion from Peng since he found that his chronicle about his exchange in Hawaii was effective.

It's been almost three months since I've left the sunny island of Singapore and I'm glad I'm not feeling very homesick. The only few things I miss are my friends, the food, my GB girls and of cos...my parents. Well I don't really miss my parents alot but yea I do miss them. Sometimes I look back and I ask myself, "Was it right for me to be so persistent in chasing my dream of becoming a Pharmacist?" Eugene once told me that if I wasn't so persistent, perhaps my relationship with a certain someone would not be where it is right now. I do regret it but it doesn't mean that if I stayed in Singapore, things would have been any different. I am happy with where we are right now and I know that the time isn't right for the both of us are going through such big transitions in our lives.

To him: I'm thankful for the memories that you left me with and I'm thankful to God for letting me know you. At least when I was feeling lost in a new environment, you were there to help me through it. I've learn how to be a better Christian because of you and you motivate me to want to become better in my walk with God.

I've closed that chapter of my life and am open to new things but as what Pastor Joshua said, we should not out maneuver God and wait upon His timing in our lives. Lol...guys are now looking for their "ribs" and girls are looking of their "rib-cages"...lol now where is mine?

2010-05-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

It's 1.24 am now, yes I know I should be sleeping cos tmr will be a very busy day but...there are so many things left undone! I think activities are silent killers cos they take up all your time that you forget the things that are most important. We often go about preparing for all sorts of things like Martha but Mary knew what was most important. (Christians, don't tell me you don't know where to find this story)

Felt rather disturbed after reading a friend's blog. She's so lonely and I didn't know that! Behind all that smiles and all that laughter, lies a very lonely soul. Why haven't I noticed? I feel like I haven't been a friend to her at all! Working as a temp admin assistant now can be rather lonely. Although there are lots of people but they treat you as transparent. Is it because they know that I'll be leaving soon, that's why they don't want to spend their time to get to know me? Well many people feel that way and I'm guilty of it too. We only have 24 hours a day and that's why we often gauge if something/someone is worth investing our time into but that's not how we should evaulate someone. Every person is important and it doesn't matter how long you have with him or her because you may have impacted his or her life with just one second of your time! A word of encouragement, a careless negative word, can just change a person's life instantly and we must know how impactful each and everyone of us are! Everyone is equally important because God loves every single one and no sin is greater over the other hence....we're all the same =)

Everyday they pass me by,

I can see it in their eyes.

Empty people filled with care,

Headed who knows where?

On they go through private pain,

Living fear to fear.

Laughter hides their silent cries,

Only Jesus hears.

People need the Lord, people need the Lord.

At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.

People need the Lord, people need the Lord.

When will we realize, people need the Lord?

We are called to take His light

To a world where wrong seems right.

What could be too great a cost

For sharing Life with one who's lost?

Through His love our hearts can feel

All the grief they bear.

They must hear the Words of Life

Only we can share.

People need the Lord, people need the Lord

At the end of broken dreams, He's the open door.

People need the Lord, people need the Lord.

When will we realize that we must give our lives,

For peo-ple need the Lord.

This is the song that rang in my head when I read the post esp the line "On they go through private pain, Living fear to fear.Laughter hides their silent cries,"

As the only child, there are times when I feel lonely. As a single, there are times when I really want someone to be there, but then, I know that this void can never be filled by material things or by people. I'm lucky to be born in a Christian family cos I knew God since young. He has been there for me all these years. Although I can't see him, but I know He's there to listen, He's there to protect and He will never forsake me.

What is true love?

2010-05-01T01:19:00.000+08:00

“Love is patient, love is kind, It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.” (1 Corinthians 13:4- 7).

This is real love and even non-Christians know this verse! However the front verses are also just as important.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. (1 Corinthians 13 : 1-3)

2010-04-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

SMRT oh SMRT...will u give the MRT train more seats? Can you make the train bigger? Since we want to encourage taking public transport then shouldn't we improve it? The trains in the newer lines are fine, but what about the East-West line and North-South lines? Well, I don't really sit down in trains but then today I was really craving for a seat. When a lady finally stood up to get off, I thought it was my lucky chance, but...a very "gentlemanly" guy took it right infront of my eyes!!!! He didn't even glance at me to check if I wanted it!!!!! It's really Oh my tien!!!! Where are the gentlemanly guys out there? Did they just die out? Ok besides this not giving the ladies a seat thing, what about the priority seats at the sides? Are we so hardup to sit!!!!!! HELLO people its supposed to be only left for the people in that category to sit!!!!! Ok, u may say that we shouldn't waste seats, then get up when you're supposed to and DON"T PRETEND TO SLEEP!!!! It's such a shame u know that other countries are doing much better than us in terms of train courtesy...tsk tsk tsk....hang our heads in shame

Sakae High-tea

2010-04-07T20:31:00.000+08:00

Went back to school to buy my graduation robe today and I saw a few familiar faces =) (Everyone except for Shawn was late...keke paiseh) It was good to see Guru's funny face after such a long time. The robe's super big and it has velcro so that the different schools can paste on their different coloured sashes. Well it would be better if we could just buy one robe and different coloured sashes so that we can share haha...that would save me $25!!!!

After that Reuel and I rushed to the OSC for our star graduate phototaking session. That stupid guy's photoshoot was quite fast and he claimed that it was due his previous experiences...WHATEVER!!! Sakae high-tea was the next destination and Reuel managed to take down roughly 20 plates!!

Hello, Pink Plate!!!!

My pink plate...Reuel says that it wasn't positioned in the same way as it was in the menu, so must change!!! Lol...if we did that, we would only get black listed...LOL

This was taken halfway...in the end we had much more than this!

FYI, the belt was the most barren that I've ever seen and I had to keep ordering!!! Nvm...it's high-tea, cheaper than dinner..hehe

Meeting Nurul for dinner on Friday...yeah...I get to see her again!

TVXQ to stop their activities!

2010-04-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

THIS IS SO NOT HAPPENING!!!! Can someone just tell me that this is a belated April's Fool joke and they are pulling my leg!!!!!! Oh, slap me!!!! First it was Jaebeom, now this!!!! Hiaz...stupid SM!!!! Although according to allkpop, TVXQ didn't say they would stop perm but then...it didn't give a dateline as well...which is so...well we saw this coming didn't we? Well, the Kpop industry is in a big mess with SM's Lee Soo Man quiting and the multiple lawsuits. Anyway, Junsu Oppa's coming to SG on 1st May with Junho Oppa...oh I so want to go!!!!

2010-04-02T02:47:00.000+08:00

I think I go a bit crazy at the wee hours of the morning or get a bit nostalgic...I'm not saying this is bad. Looking through my old locked blog posts on LJ, I've realised how much of my life has been taken up by a certain somebody. I don't regret but I just feel a little stupid....some of you may know who I'm referring to but some may not...so..stop trying to guess! LOL...I feel I've grown up a little, learnt to accept life's harsh realities a little more and on my way to greater things.

It's time to move on, it's time to embrace new things, it's time to welcome new people into my life and it's time to create new memories. Although with still MUCH anguish...I'll close this chapter of you, deleting whatever little that's left that triggers my memory. May God grant me strength =)

~~P.s To whoever that thinks I'm talking about them...its really not about you~~

2010-03-05T01:48:00.000+08:00

Sadness...is this emotion even allowed? A lot of things have been happening around me and this feeling of saddness just came over me. Why? Cos I've realised how easily trust can be broken and how easily we betray each other. This is the 2nd time I'm feeling this way, the feeling of knowing someone yet realising that you don't know that person after all but this time, I feel sadder. True friends are hard to come by and I treasure every single one of you. Though I know I may not be the best person on this earth and I am super forgetful and always late, but I value each and every one of them.

Sincerity is what I value most after Trust...I hope you will too and I'm feeling very disturbed

2010-01-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

Had my FIRST council meeting today! *claps* ok it wasn't as stressful as I thought it would be but I was trying my best to keep awake cos I prepared cell lesson till quite late last night. The youth from QLC came over today and woah they reall made up the numbers..cos the MPH was filled up totally! The excitment and energy was something that JCC has been missing for quite some time now and I really hope that this friendship will last long...*cough* huiling *cough* Anyways, I saw someone..hehe...not telling who but...okok Debra you've got to control yourself! *smacks self* Wanted to check movie today but kena ps..but never mind cos I was too tired to even open my eyes! But I had a FANTASTIC dinner with Mummy right in the comfort of my own home ..whee..had my favourite STEAM BOAT!!!

Yummy right!!!! And another Sunday passes....

2010-01-10T14:51:00.000+08:00

It's 2010 but it doesn't feel like a new year...time is passing and I'm running along with it. My journey through ADPP (advanced diploma in pharmacy practice) has been a tough one and I feel like I've missed out a lot of things. Dance has always been my passion but I had to let it go to free myself with some time. People say I'm always busy and I really feel that too but I can't slow down cos if I do, I'll lose out. People around me are getting attached and talking about their next boyfriend being their husband but I've realised that wasn't even on my mind. Right now...I feel like I want the whole world. I want to get into Uni, graduate with my liscense and excel in my career. Is there even a guy in the picture? I would say...No. Maybe I would find somebody worthy of my time and effort, who is worthy for me to part with my rat race and slow down for him. It's not that I don't want anyone, but that someone has to come looking for me. =)

~~p.s I long for it, but I can never seem to get it...u know what I mean~~

2010-01-05T22:41:00.000+08:00

I'M LEAVING MY SADNESS BEHIND!!!!! Cos i know its no use mopping anymore!

I really wanted to do my work...but I couldn't focus...why? Cos someone has stirred up something again...

2009-12-20T18:11:00.000+08:00

IT"S ONLY 5 DAYS AWAY to CHRISTMAS!!!!! Seriously, I've only realised it TODAY!!!! This is how caught up I've been in work, school and church...=( I need my life back...maybe a boyfriend? (Kidding...when it comes, it comes)

Had carolling yesterday and the day before and today I was super tired!!!! The outfit of choice was, red top, black bottom...as usual..haha, since when was Christmas's official colour, red & black? Isn't it suppose to be red & green? Anway, that's besides the point..LOL The best thing about the carolling was that we carolled mostly to non-Christians and to see their faces glow with the hope of Christmas is really heart-warming. This world is filled with despair and our hope is really in Christ. Sometimes I don't know why God lets unhappiness come into our lives and he doesn't seem to intervene but then HE is the LORD and HE is still in control and that is my hope.

I'm currently watching Vampire Diaries and it's super intoxicating!!!! I've realised my liking for intensed guys haha namely the alpha male...haha but I'm not exactly the damsel in distress..hehe the guys in that drama is way too hot!!! Seriously, I need to calm down..=)

2009-12-04T00:43:00.000+08:00

http://www.tackfilm.se/en/?id=1259807472794RA77&q=low

Seriously man..I was so stupid to load the slow version!!!! It took so long!!! When David first told me that his face would appear I didn't believe but then...hehehe watch it yourself =) Hehe..all the best for Pharm Chem tmr though its super sian. All the best for FYP too...hiaz..I'm saying this to myself too!!!!

Had camp meeting tonight till 11pm (my eyes were shutting most of the time) and had an interesting chat with Pastor Sam. He recommended me the movie, "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" of all movies right...haha. I've realised that it has lots of learning though it has a weird story line. It takes about a guy age from old to young and a girl age from young to old. So when they fall in love, the perspective at each different stage is very different. It shows a perspective of an older man and a younger women and a younger man and an older women. It shows how the relationship shifts in dimension, something that many people don't consider....thought provoking right...YES!!! I'm gonna catch it soon!!!! Since it has Brad Pitt, Huiling's not gonna watch it with me..cos she would just keep drooling over him!!!

2009-11-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that Min got tipsey after 5 sips of vodka!!!!!! Haha..this is the very reason why we should always drink a little, so that we won't be so affected by alcohol! I seriously love them alot!!!! Min, Wen and Ling....they mean so much to me =)

My heart sank...today...but then I blame no one, cos its my own fault. I wish you well, though we've not talked for a month and thanks for all the memories you've left me with. No one has ever loved me this way, and I guess it was because you were the first and that got me addicted to this feeling.

LAST DAY @ P/S

2009-11-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

I AM SO IN NEED OF GOOD SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tmr's my LAST day in Purchasing and Store and Thurs and Fri I'll have orientation...WOOTS~ yeah...together with the MOs =) Anyway, since tmr's my last day in purchasing and store, maybe I should get the uncles something for being so nice to Gwen and I...haha. So Friday, I'll be off to Retail Pharmacy..yeah...I'll be together with Mariem =)

Today's ward rounds were fun..haha I tagged along with Gwen to recruit her patients for her Patient Medication List project. I got to flip through the IMRs and case notes and it felt like a real Pharmacist/Doctor...and guess what, I saw quite a few dashing doctors along the way...yeah =)Hiaz..FYP is just round the corner and I've also got my Dementia MTS project to do...GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!! After FYP, I'll be fine again..haha wish me luck =)

I like this photo LOTs haha cos I'm standing beside a gigantic photo of Rain!!!!

2009-11-07T22:42:00.000+08:00

First thing's first HAPPY BIRTHDAY GILDER...you're how old? Okok..I don't want to know, it means I'm getting older...LOL Stay cheerful and pretty and may God continue to guide you as you seek after HIM. Smile more k, and you're be EXTRA PRETTY...hahah.

Anyways, really dreaded to wake up for Awards Ceremony this morning cos it was just too early!!! HELLO...it's SATURDAY!!!! Seriously speaking, the awards were the last thing on my mind and I almost forgot about it. My entire mind is only filled with attachment related stuff and FYP...I've got to keep track of my church stuff too...hiaz..so little time, so much to do..I rather spend my days with you (who?). The only thing good about today's awards, was the buffet. LOL...just like Friday's CPC at 7.30 am...it was damn early -__-''''but they served buffet breakfast and the doctors were also there to attend...yea!!!! I'm currently at Purchasing/Store department of AH...and I hope I can finish the excel that I'm given soon!!!! Monday's IT so I will have to finish reading the pre-reading material before that...oh just kill me!!!! So many things to read!!!

I need a mask!!! LOL no lah

Min and Me!!! After PJ on Thurs at my place

2nd day @ AH

2009-11-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

Today's the 2nd day of my internship at Alexandra Hospital and man, there are seriously lots of Dr eye candies!!!! Woots~ i'm loving my job...yeah yeah yeah but well it sure its draining, going through all those pre readings that I have to FINISH!!!! FYI, there's only one canteen and I'm so gonna get sick of the food there! The only good thing, it's that EVERYONE has to go there..so hint: Doctors will go there too..hehehe

I'm attached to Purchasing and Store for now and I'm so envious of Hilmi's rotation!!!! He's in Inpatient...where I was supposed to be in!!!! He's learning so much now...and he's having FUN at the same time!!! The life in AH, seems rather similar to RP cos we have lots of workshops and readings to do. We have lots of problems to solve and lots of questions to answer. Just experiencing this morn's row call was like...OMG...I've got to read up more man!!!

After work, I went to LOT 1 to watch "My Sister's Keeper" with Min and Ling. Dinner was horrible..didn't know what kind of noodles I was chowing down on..it felt like eating warm flour!!! Anyway, the movie...FYI...isn't for those who don't like to cry in public!!! Why? Cos the entire cinema was passing tissues...LOL. The girls were openly sniffling and wiping away their tears while the guys were trying to hide by coughing away their tears...haha..guys...TRY HARDER!!!! I'll not be a SPOILEr and tell u guys the synopsis but it's a great movie, taught me alot about not being delusional. Tmr...will be a good day...I HOPE

Everyday's a new day made by GOD, so treasure it and make the most out of it. One way you could make yourself happier, try and give thanks about 5 things daily.

Josiah's words of wisdom!

2009-11-01T23:04:00.001+08:00

Had a really long chat with Josiah today and his words are really full of wisdom!!!! Oh my gosh, Josiah, u should just come over to JCC and give a talk on BGR!!!!

This is why he thinks that guys should treat girls better:

1st is becoz influenced by my mum lar...all gals deserve to be treated like a princess...at least once in their lifetime
den for my own idea and theory why guys should treat gals better
2 reasons: 1) Gals put in so much effort for looks, 2) Gals go through so much more pain than guys
ok explain 1), many reasons why gals dress up or put make-up etc etc is not really to be hiao or what, most of the time is abt self-esteem (feeling good abt themselves) and sometimes to be pleasing to eyes of the opposite gender. But guys just wear jeans and t-shirt den can liao, but if a gal does that...and don't use cosmetics etc etc, people will label as heck-care
2) everything assuming equal, there are only 3 main differences, work, monthly period (cramps) and 9 month (pregnancy). So if the gal oso works and is a mother at the same time, she has 2 more areas of pain than guys.
So since gals put in so much effort and goes through so much more pain that we(guys) can never experience or really understand, shouldn't we treat our female frenz and peers better?
its not much to ask for...yar so that's my idea

I felt this is SO TRUE!!! Thank goodness for u..at least there are some guys out there who think about the other gender!!!

There's also another thing: Guys need to understand CLOSURE!!! Why? Cos according to Josiah, guys can naturally end relationship themselves without any verbal declaration that things ended. While closure comes usually externally for gals, and gals use it to make understanding of what went wrong in order for the issue not drag.

P.S I totally feel it man!!!!

What do u think?

Dinner @ Min's

2009-10-30T09:09:00.000+08:00

Had dinner at Min's house today and I'm feeling so bloated. It was just ONE slice of Japanese Pizza but then it takes up so much space in my tummy that I can't stomach anything else right now. It was Aunty Beng Lay's 1st attempt at making it and yet it turned out delicious...haha it's cos she has "magic" hands.

The table is SET!!!

The nice one decorated by ME!!!

The ugly one decorated by Min and Ling

IDP trip!

2009-10-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

Went down to IDP's Australian Study Fair today at Orchard Hotel and guess what, I saw Darryl Chan...hahaha..it's been a long time since I've seen him =) He wants to go abroad too and I wish him all the BEST! I also met Elynn and her mom too which wasn't surprising cos I told her about the fair...LOL. Well, I've officially submitted my application to Monash University and now...I'm just waiting...let's see what God has in store for me.

Actually I went down with Min, Wen, Ling and Yang who were there on the pretext of accompanying me but they ended up asking more than I did...LOL. I guess cos Pharmacy is a very specialized course and I've already heard alot about what they have to offer before, hence I didn't really have much to ask.

Chilling at Coffee Bean after IDP

The Kao sisters..Wen and Ling

Wei Yang, the little brother of my bestie..haha and an expert in Coffee Bean's coffee

Min and Me...

Tea Time @ Dempsey

2009-10-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

Today was a good day and tmr will be a better one. Chilling at Dempsey's Jones Grocer was great. The tea was great, the company was great, the "sight-seeing" was great too but the only bad thing was the weather. It was super humid!!!! Haha...the reason behind the fantastic "sight-seeing" was because Channel 5 was having their charity car-wash at Dempsey too and hence I was face to face with NAT HO, Adrian Pang, Michelle Chia and the other "Polo Boys" cast. Haha..Nat Ho is really very handsome and his mini fan club was also there!!! LOL I didn't know he had a fan base too..LOLs but this is nothing compared to Korean Idols' fanclubs =) Kao Huiling was SOOOO jealous that we were so close to Nat Ho...gosh I can just imagine how she would react..HAHAHA she's always pervertic but nvm..I still love her lots!

After that Min and I went back down to Orchard to shop and that irritating girl kept pulling me away from the cute stuff section. I was so tempted by this play dough like Jap kit that allowed people to DIY handphone charms and other accessories. She said that I had to grow out of such things!!! -_- Chong Min Hui...you nonsense girl!!!!

SEE YOU IN LESS THAN 24 hours!!!

2009-10-23T10:07:00.000+08:00

MRT kept stalling again...due to high traffic!!! -__-''' Okok....I was late tecnically but in the end Faci didn't mark me late yea and the best thing of all was that Min and I were on the SAME TRAIN!!!!! Going to school with bestie is the best! Haha...and we're chilling at Dempsey tmr.

Some Pictures

2009-10-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

I've just got tagged by Joanne on FB so here are some pictures from Eunice's 21st Birthday last Sunday

Eunice's guy friends went to ka chiao the picture..LOL

2009-10-21T16:10:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha..I'm just damn bored now so I'll blog about yesterday. I now officially have an offer for a place in Monash University in Australia. My GPA has allowed me to enter both Bachelor in Pharmacy and Pharmacetical Sciences and though I should be happy but I'm now more confused than ever. I'm afraid that I can't adapt there. I would also have to leave behind alot of things and I just can't see myself uprooting just like that. The new sem starts in March next year and my official graducation isn't till April. My parents adviced me to wait till NUS and NTU starts their application and try out everything.

Anyways...the happy thing about yesterday was that I finally had Sakae sushi buffet at Causeway Point again after a very long time. It was the usual people but with the addition of David and someone else. Haha...I had the usual stuff like sashimi (my favourite) and tofu!! There was this new dish that taste like a mix between marshroom and squid and half of the time we were just trying to guess what it was. Haha...I felt that it was too springy to be marshroom though...

I think creams hate me!!!! I've re done the compounding for creams like 3 times!!!!!! Luckily I had Eugene and Hilmi to help me...haha Mariem was complaining that they have double standards...LOL she's just jealous....

2009-10-19T14:17:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling very tired right now cos I got home really late last night. Thanks Eunice for the fantastic party / Boomztastic party at YMCA rooftop. Met a few people there like Alice and XiaoBai whom I've not seen for a super duper long time. Eunice also introduced Elynn and I to her long-time friend Yi Liang. He's a rather nice person and rather easy to talk to. Learnt that he's from SMU and he says its not cool studying there...haha...it's not like I have a course there to study too. Terence was another guy I met there and he was also the host for the night. He is a friend of both Eunice and Joanne and so indirectly we got to know each other. Haha..his opening sentence to me when we met at the mrt was,"Hey, u look familiar, where have I seen u?" and my reply to him was "Hey, where have I seen u? U look familiar too!" Haha...he's a very funny guy and he almost collapsed on the pole when I thought he danced for the NDP's line dance segment

I feel so suffocated..I really don't know why....rawks~

2009-10-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

I'm supposed to be preparing for cell lesson right now...DEBRA CHEAH XINYI..STOP BLOGGING....LOL

I finally got my Amore member card...cos I finally persuaded myself to stop trying to bring a passport size photo when I could just take it there right at the spot!!!!

Crap...the pic turns out fuzzy..nvm but I'm now officially holding onto a card!!! Woots~

Oh btw...on the way home yesterday, a stupid orange van dashed the red light and almost banged me down. Thank God I wasn't smsing cos I was about to. Luckily I just stepped out onto the crossing and hence I was at a safe distance. Stupid van..too bad I didn't take down the number plate..if not...MUHAHAHAHA *evil thoughts*

SHOUT OUTS:
-I just had durian!!!!
-Thanks Eugene for the egg tarts, they were nicer than your previous batch, though it wasn't as pleasent looking. Btw, Hilmi gave him 7 out of 10 which was based solely on taste. Haha...the reason for the ugly/not so nice looking tarts, : He drove too fast!!!! ROFL

-Reuel Heng quit nagging at me to sleep early. You yourself don't sleep early and you better get your immunization jab soon before I drag you down myself!!!!!
-Sorry Mariem, we really thought you had Chiron first that's why we left first...there wasn't anything going on
-JOBELLE UNNIE, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY and Mariem's younger sister too =) You look so much like Mariem...OMG!!!!

2009-10-16T00:03:00.001+08:00

I seriously feel more and more like a witch making potions day by day...hahaha esp since today we had to make an ephedrine exlixir and a simple linctus...wondering what that is...well google it then...
The funniest thing was that Min called me during my lab session to tell me that.....SHE KILLED A COCKROACH!!! BUt....she didn't dare to dipose of it and she wasn't sure it was dead yet cos it's feelers were still moving. I seriously thought she called me because of her bf cos her voice was trembling and she had told me certain things about him last night but then...it came down to THIS!!!! HAHAHA she sure is cute! To cut the story short...Min managed to killed the cockroach after an hour!!! Record breaking time indeed...I wonder what would my record time would be?

SHOUT OUT: Shawn still owes me milk tea and now it's 3 weeks worth of milk tea!!! I've reached an agreement with him to wash all his labware and he treats me milk tea...hehehe. Thanks Andy for the strawberry lollipop =) Yes I know I'm a busy girl so the trip to Marche will be hmmm....

Had PJ (bible study) at my house today again and Mindy brought us through the life of Saul. Saul was the King of Israel who was chosen by God but then pride and ego got the better of him and thus he became implusive and disobedient....sadly, he didn't repend and got disposed off. I think we are all very quick to judge and point out his flaws but then as what Mindy said, we have to look at ourselves first. It is better to look in the mirror and see what's wrong with ourselves than to look outside the window and point fingers at others.

Drawn by Wen and Roger depicting the story of Saul (1Sam 13-15)

Killer Heels

2009-10-14T09:49:00.000+08:00

CHONG MIN HUI, forgot to bring her antibiotics to school today!!!!! Miss Chong, do u know how important it is to stick to the dosing timings and she also thinks that she forgot to lock her door *faints* what am I gonna do with this little girl?

I'm drifting into lala land right now zzZ....it's compounding lesson again and now it's suspension -_-'''. The only thing that is interesting is the fashion show pictures that Min showed me through msn. Haha..the two of us were just gwaking at how grossly how the heels are. How do the models walk in them? Both of us agreed that we would have fallen off the stage many times in those killer heels!!!!

Killer heels from Alexender McQueen

2nd Day...

2009-10-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

Today was the 2nd day of Pharmaceutical Compounding and guess what...we made MORPHINE capsules today...muhahaha *black market hint hint*. It was fun though I really doubt the pink powder labelled as "Morphine" was really the powder that makes people get high. Today's breakout was at 12 30pm and it felt really weird lunching with an environment full of year 1s. The year 1 are like packs of people that all eat at the same timing and leave at the same timing which isn't a norm for the year 3s who eat at our own time, own target =) I guess like in Mariem's words, "We were brought up that way!"

Left school rather early today with Huiling, Jobelle unnie and Aminah and on the way, we met David. Haha, it's been a while since I've seen him or any of us from ADPP who have seen him. It was quite a fun ride home with him on the train and it was nice of him trying to make conversation =)

P.s I saw Mr. S today...*claps*

A New Day

2009-10-12T09:39:00.001+08:00

Welcome to PHARMACEUTICAL COMPOUNDING!!! YEAR 4 MODULE!!!!! Ade is finally showing herself...yeahs!!!! Whenever I see branded good esp Coach..I'll think of her cos she shops a lot at Duty Free...haha smart girl cos there's the exclusion of GST.

"10 REASONS WHY I LOVE BEING SINGLE" this is the card I wanted to buy for my friend but then it was too expensive...I didn't think it was worth my money haha cos I could DIY. But then I felt bad too cos I'm like telling her blatantly that she's single but then I'm single too...so we're equal hehehe....

This is today's sucky prescription

This is a year 4 module...HAHAHA

Selca Pictures again!

2009-10-12T00:55:00.000+08:00

It's late at night again...and I'm bored....thinking that tmr I have to go to school just sucks =(

Sorry for the unglamness...haha if there's such a word..this is my "going to bed" look!

Selca Pictures

2009-10-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

Just feeling a little bored last night...

It's OVER...Year 3 modules are OVER!!!

2009-10-10T01:07:00.000+08:00

I found dried mangoes and they are my new love!!!!! Haha...I think it's too much influence from Jobelle Unnie and the 2PM boys who love dried mangoes ALOT!!!! Jobelle's obsession for dried mangoes are so bad till she will think of them when she sees yellow leaves on the floor.

Today is finally the end of Pharmaceutical Chemistry!!!! While some others are struggling with their first lesson of Pharm Chem e.g Chin Xin and Dimi, I'm over it...MUHAHAHAHA. UT3...can do lah...but then...we're such a small class, moderate also like -_- so...I'm praying hard. After UT I went to celebrate my "release" at Roberterson Quay with my parents. I had Jap again...and it was FANTASTIC...super authentic =) The sashimi was so thick and juicy....I can never describe its taste!!!! The waitress who served us seemed to remember me as this is my 3rd time there....this is how good it is!

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The wall that is between us, is still there but I've sorted out my thinking. There's no point pushing and I've given up trying to find out the reason.I'll just let it be but I won't be there waiting when you turn back.

[HQ] Son Dambi-After School - Amoled (아몰레드) MV

2009-10-08T23:17:00.001+08:00

This is the real stuff, presenting Son Dambi and After School!!!

Should I or Should I not....

2009-10-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

Should I or should I not....join the Amoled Dance Competition? I'm interested but then hesitating...why...cos firstly, I've to deal with my ADPP(Advance dip.in Pharmacy Practice), then deal with my church stuff...and who's gonna chero the dance steps? Will I be able to learn Amoled in a short time? I'm confident that I'll be able to if I had a real person standing infront of me and teaching me but not so sure if I have to learn it from Youtube...hiaz. Andy says that he can help me to manage my time table...haha, he's supposed to be my "manager"...yah right...u study hard first lah. Jobelle unnie's rather interested and we watched the Amoled paraodies that other people did too and it was hilarious esp Vogue, who won first at last year's Chingay. I told the girls that we should be ashamed of ourselves if we can't dance and strut our stuff like those boys can!!!!! The amazing thing was that the entire competition was filled with videos sent in by the male gender....SHOUTOUT:"HELLO~!!!!! Where in the world are the females?????? Isn't this dance by Son Dambi and After School a super sexy and feminie, testosterone increasing kind of dance? Jobelle unnie's answer to me was...."remember, who are the fans of Son Dambi and After School?" my answer:"Guys"...oh...ditto! Yah...but even then...nvm...I'll think about it and get back to you soon...muahahaha if I win..I get a free Samsung Amoled phone..yipee...but then..that's IF I win lah =)

http://apac.sec.samsung.com/samsungmobile/amoleddanceoff/contestdetails.aspx

Pigging out at Carl's Junior

2009-10-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went to the Amore at Park Mall to sign up for another 3 months package and the lovely counter lady gave Elynn and I both a $50 spa voucher!!!! Yea...haha, but I doubt I'll ever use it. The bad thing was that the counter lady took super long to attend to us and hence we only had about 45 mins to exercise and we only got to eat at 9pm. The trip home was torturous as I had to endure a pungent smell coming out from an AngMoh who just finished exercising. I had a headache when I got home thanks to him!!!!! OMG!!!! Guys, pls pls try your best to smell nice can!!!!

This morning...I really didn't want to go to school and I left the house VERY VERY late! I was super close to cabbing to school and every step to the way to Lakeside MRT, a cab zoomed past me...THANKS AH!!!! Luckily I didn't take a cab...I resisted the temptation and I got to school on time. I even had extra time to wait for Elynn...haha love SMRT!!!!

Our waiting cards

Elynn squeezing lemons I'm eating fries

Trip to Ikea

2009-10-05T15:00:00.000+08:00

I just got some pictures from Ling which were taken at Ikea. We went there to celebrate Mindy's birthday and it was the usual loud and crazy time that we had together. It had been a long time since I've gone out with Mindy and Stephanie and this trip made going to Ikea and extraordinary experience! If I'm not wrong, I had salmon that day while some of the others ate Swedish Meatballs..haha. After talking and lots of eating, we headed down to have ice cream and hotdog bread.

I"M CURRENTLY STUCK IN THE LAB and I"M DYING!!!!!

Me and Wen wen

Look at why Min is doing...haha she just blurred her own shot!

Happy Mid Autumn Festival & Chuseok!!!!

2009-10-04T22:53:00.001+08:00

It's the festive season again and though Singaporeans may not really feel it cos Mid Autumn Festival aka. Mooncake Festival isn't really a big deal to us unless, you're a Mooncake retailer. But to the Koreans, it's a huge big festival cos it is their Korean Thanksgiving Festival aka. Chuseok!!!!

The K-pop scene naturally was kept busy throughout this festive season with lots in store like the SBS's Star Idol, MBC's Star Battle, Chuseok Special for We Got Married (Woots~ Brown Eye Girl's Ga-in and 2AM's JoKwon's new pairing), Shall We Dance, Sweet Girl (6 girl groups came together!) and etc....well the media companies there sure know how to keep their cash registers ringing! My favourite past time right now...is to watch how the Korean boy bands try to outdo the females...haha esp how 2AM's JoKwon and SeulOng did their best to pull off Brown Eye Girl's Abracadabra...it was OMG!!!!!!

2AM doing Abracadabra and Shabang Shabang woots~

Super Junior doing their version of SNSD's Tell Me Your Wish and SNSD doing SuJu's Sorry Sorry

After School doing 2PM's Again and Again on Star Dance Battle. Gahee's arm had "This is for you guys"...hiaz..thinking of them again...*sobs* Jaebeom!

Credits to www.allkpop.com for the photos and information

Supper Time...AGAIN!

2009-10-04T16:13:00.000+08:00

Went supper again after worship practice on Friday night and it was 2 straight nights that I've been suppering (if there's such a word)! Worship prac was good and I was on time! Hehe...the good thing was that Justin didn't nag when some people were late...thank goodness =) The entire thing turn out well and we ended early, cos Justin was super task-oriented...haha, I think we have a few such people in church...like Ling =) Supper was good cos it was with my makan buddies Ling and Josel and we slurped up Hokkien mee and dumplings and pancake. We also washed them down with Teh Peng and Milo Peng...OMG fattening right...*rolls eyes* Anyway, I had supper last night too, after the entire Lantern Festival event at Chinese Garden...and I'm feeling so tired right now. I'm supposed to be studying in church, but I'm blogging while Ling is sleeping beside me...-_-'''

P.S Wenwen, I'll miss you when you're in Malaysia visiting your relatives!!!! Come back 1 piece k!!!! Muacks and Min had Indian supper again!!!! I'm envious!!!!

The beautiful huiling and josel and the Hokkien mee!

Finally PJ again

2009-10-02T15:15:00.000+08:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle (taken from "The Show" by Lenka). This is how I am feeling right now...just like that! Nvm...today is a good day..except for U_ _ _ (guess who!!!)

Anyway, I finally had PJ again last night after a super long time and it's so nice to see all of them again. It is nice seeing Aunty Yen Luan and Uncle Patrick so loving...*envious* and us girls went crazy together again...LOL what's new? Well, even Jason finds us amusing...haha..IMAGINE THAT!!!! Note to Huiling: Miss Kao, can you try and stop screaming...it's hurting your lovely voice....it's so sad to hear it go hoarse *sobs* It was a nice session of sharing and catching up and the order was actually decided by spinning a pen...haha. Ms Kao was forever the tast-oriented person thanks to her, we got to end things on time so that we had extra time to help out in the packing for the Lantern Festival event on 3rd Oct at Chinese Garden. After that, Min wanted to go for supper, so Me, Min, Ling, Josel and Mindy headed down to S-11 near church for drinks and curry zhu cang fen.

The cheese cake that Huiling made for Josel's birthday =)

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY EVERYONE!!!!!

2009-10-01T10:02:00.000+08:00

Today's 1st of October and its Children's Day TODAY!!!! Though I'm 19 but its still YOUNG enough to celebrate this special day. I've received 2 greetings so far, 1 sms from Mindy and 1 face to face by Ivane. She even gave our class chocolates! Haha...and I said Sue Yee, is the most qualified to celebrate today cos of her petite size...haha...sorry lah, but petite very cute mah!

Josel's, Felicia's and Xiu Yun's

2009-09-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

The end of July is a month of birthday celebrations for me. I'm not whining but instead....HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all the July babies!!!! Last Sunday, my cell COOL (Christ.Over.Our.Lives) celebrated Josel's, Felicia and Xiu Yun's birthdays. The sweet sweet Sac went to Jurong Point to customise the cake herself!!! So sweet for her, keep up the good work!!!! I dont' have many pictures though but this is what I kope from Roger's Facebook..hehe

That's the lovely COOL with Inspirato cell too!!!! Look at the lovely cake with all our names in icing...(Pai Seh if it's too small..hehe)

19th Birthday Celebration Collection 3!!!!

2009-09-30T10:15:00.000+08:00

OK, I think here's the final set of pictures and this time it's with the BESTIES!!!! FYI, they blinded folded me all the way to Robertson Quay!!!! (Min Hui wanted to try it out since she got blined folded for her birthday too..hehehe)

Hilmi's 20th Birthday Celebration

2009-09-29T16:20:00.000+08:00

Got out slightly earlier today to meet Mariem and Farah at Causeway Point to buy Hilmi's birthday cake from Prima Deli (the most popular Halah place to buy cake) We were spoilt for choice but in the end, we chose the healthiest one...the one that was TRANS FAT FREE!!!!! Eugene suggested to Mariem last night that we should buy a Banana Chocolate cake for Hilmi, but then....*makes face!* There were mixed opinions about that idea and Yoges' one was ," You think waffle ah!" FYI, RP is famous for chocolate banana waffle. So here are some pictures....from my HP

The slices of cake cut by Aminah

The Audi R8 car model that Natasha and gang got the birthday boi!!!!

19th Birthday Collection 2!

2009-09-29T14:34:00.001+08:00

Here's the 2nd part of my collection...it was a FANTASTIC 19th birthday. Places I went: Vivo City, Haji Lane, Central, Clarke Quay

That's JunHao, chowing down on his refillable Ramen!!!!

Huiling and Elynn...BELOVED!!!

That's the LOUD Huiling and her beloved egg!!!

OOHHHH...any takers?

And that's the pretty us!

19th Birthday Collection 1!

2009-09-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

Though this is more than a month overdue...I will still love to share! These are the people who have been and are still part of my life, THANK YOU ALL!!!!

(Sue Yee, the drama queen and me)

Is this photoshopped?

2009-09-28T17:51:00.000+08:00

Haha...Shawn Koh, this was supposed to be on your license!!!! Hope you will pass the next time k. PS, is it photoshopped? You seriously looks more handsome here!!!!

Plagiarism- or is it just envy?

2009-09-28T00:05:00.001+08:00

To all out there who arn't familiar with Kpop, let me introduce today's star; G-Dragon, leader of renowed Kpop group Big Bang. He is now having solo activities but is being plaqued with accusations of plgiarism...tsk tsk

Here's the accusations that Sony has slammed GD with
GD's "Heart breaker" is similar to Flo Rider's "Right Round"
"Butterfly" is similar to "She's Electric" by Oasis

Well there are others like Freechal saysing that 2NE1's "I Don't Care" is similar to Lionel Richie's "Just Go" and BigBang's "With U" sounds similar to Joe's "Ride Wit U". Though not directly connect to G Dragon but he sure is under the heat but this doesn't seem to hinder him from hoarding the Kpop charts with his title track "Heart Breaker"

Korea isn't the only place for such rumors and scandals cos Taiwan is also a hot bed of such things!!!! When Jolin Tsai released her album Butterfly, netizens accused her of copying Mariah Carey (hint: same name for album ) Thinking that matters couldn't get any worst, rumors were flying that Jolin's MV for "Real Man" was lifted from a perfume commercial by Agyness Deyn, a famous British model. Following in GD's footsteps, Jolin's version of "Real Man" sounded really similar to Lexington Bridge's "Real Man". Tsai has long been said to be copying Ayumi Hamasaki's style but well...all fashion seems to go in a cycle doesn't it, like how the bell bottom jeans are coming back into fashion again...-_-''''

So how do you know when someone is really plagiarising? Jolin's company dismished such accusations as a mere coincidence...what do you think? Well...how creative can one ever be? That's because we are all wired up and are bombarded with millions of influences from everywhere and thus there may be an overlap of ideas = similarity in music. Another angle will be, are the people in the entertainment industry just trying to stire up something to cause a stir? To them, all news is good news!

Here's some pictures for u lovelies to scrutinize:

(left: Jolin Tsai and right: Ayumi Hamasaki)

Credits: http://www.allkpop.com/ and http://www.asiaenews.com/jolin-tsai-plagiarizing-again/

Kumar Drag Queen part 1

2009-09-27T20:50:00.001+08:00

Kudos to Kumar, you'll laugh till u fall off the chair

Kumar Drag Queen

2009-09-27T20:38:00.002+08:00

We were supposed to be studying but somehow, we started watching Kumar Drag Queen on YouTube. Well, it was a well deserved break time and Kumar was the best person to fill in our empty time slot! Kumar is just hilarious and his/her, I really don't know, has the gift of the gab. Personally I feel that Kumar is rather brave for making fun of the political system in Singapore but which Singaporean comedian isn't? I like how he/she talked about a certain somebody by using the phrase,"The surname has 3 letters and two of which are repeats!!! "Hahaha, that was smart, cos the audience got the meaning and Kumar wasn't in danger of getting into any trouble! In my opinion, Singaporean comedians should talk about other things than just the political system, the racial harmony in Singapore and all our "bad" habits..haha like being kia su, kia si and what nots...haha, but I"m not saying that they are not good, just that it has been done so many times already that people can anticipate what your next line is gonna be. Anyway, kudos to Kumar, you seriously ROCK!!!!

2009-08-07T00:39:00.002+08:00

Personl shout out: I MISS DANCING!!!!! I MISS SOCIALING!!!! I guess no one will understand this feeling unless they are dancers themselves. I'm looking through Kaytee's photos on facebook and the feeling is back again. I can still remember the fun I had at SISF and the memories created. It was also the first time I didn't sleep for an entire day and had Mac breakfast with a few of the delegates. I really miss those times...and I hope I'll be able to go again this year. Haha...I told Huiling that I missed Kaytee..haha..he is seriously HOT and sexy when he's dancing esp when he's doing K-style Bachata. I would love to dance with him, but I guess I'm not good enough yet. Yes, the word is "yet" means that one day, I'll be able to reach that level. Heard that SMU's going to HongKong for a dance competition this weekend and I'm so envious! All the BEST!!!! Make Singapore proud! All the best Douglas!!!

2009-08-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mariem!!!!!! It's also Mr S's birthday...haha I didn't know u shared the same birthday as Mariem! It's finally August YEAH it means my birthday is coming up soon!!!!!!! Going to flea tmr...and this will be the final of my lazing around...I NEED to study again and get down to work again! My stomach hasn't been feeling very good lately, don't know why but Min's one isn't very good too...haha I get best friends get the same stuff at the same time! HAPPY BIRTHDAY Mr S...hope to see you soon! Note to self: SISF 09 is in Nov....but I'll be having attachment then...maybe I'll get the night pass and dance through the night..haha. Hope to see Douglas soon..he promised to dance with me...WHEEEE...he's hot!

2009-07-29T15:55:00.002+08:00

HI EVERYONE!!! I'm back using this blog cos LJ is just too hard for me to use. It is just me or am I a tech-idiot? Nvm..my LJ will still be active but it will only be open to a restricted group of people =) (PS You know who you are)

What am I doing now? Sitting in my chair listening to faci....BORING!!!!! Well..what has report writing got to do with lab management? Maybe validation of the results is more important lah. Though the lesson is boring but I love my classmates..esp my TEAM MATES!!!! We are a super funny team esp Adele and Guru..haha I can't believe he read my FB Note about my ideal guy aloud!!! It during FMT time for goodness sake! Haha...well that's him...but he lightenes up the mood of the class.

ALL THE BEST Sharon, JR, Ade,Chin and Patrick!!! JiaYou for FYP!!!! My PI Elaine's not bad lah..WHAHAHA

2009-03-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

Had a long chat with Josel today when she came over to my hse. I really love her company and I managed to teach her a bit of piano. Well besides that I've come to realize how important it is to stand firm in my convictions. Well my God is more important than any guy on this earth and I will not do things to break his heart. It has been a struggle for me but I know that I can't be unequally yoked. Well speaking with Jon Jr last wed opened my eyes to see how Christian relationships can be like. I'm not saying that I'm into him or anything but the feeling of speaking about what I felt about my faith with him just felt great. I realized that I still have feelings for J but I guess now isn't the right time for the both of us. Well whatever may come , you'll always be someone special to me.

2009-01-05T14:36:00.000+08:00

The kind soul who woke up at 6am to provide us with breakfast!!!!

2009-01-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

My breakfast!!!! Thanks Jian Hui =)

2009-01-05T01:00:00.002+08:00

Today was combined cell activity and really glad that the BB joined us in the games as well. It was a pity I had shepherds meeting during their games time and when the meeting was over, everyone dispersed =( I'm glad that J was there too..(Jun Hao must be smacking his head when he sees this..whatever k..go ahead an announce loh)

I haven't officially said my goodbyes to AAT yet...but I know I will miss you all =(. It's a big move for me and one that I will take with a big step of faith. AAT will not disband, don't worry. I know who are the new leaders going in and I have faith in them as well.

Dear AAT, we've been together since Sec 1 and most of us have known each other since birth. Although there were times when the cell wasn't that united, but you have been a big part in my life. I really hope to see you all grow and take on the leadership one day and it has been glad serving together with you all.

To YO, I can't wait to be a part of your family! Hope you'll welcome me too =)

2008-12-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

Macroons I bought for Mummy from Wisma's Bakezin

These few days have been hectic for me due to the Christmas Concert rehearsal. Super tired and still can't find time to study =( Went out shopping with my parents today and nursed a headache the entire journey. My headache got worst when I stepped into the cosmetics section of Takashimaya. The perfume just overwhelmed me...goodness...I will never work there! We walked from Wisma to Taka then back to Wisma and then to Tangs. It's a Monday but the amount of homo sepiens out on the streets makes it seem like a weekend! Recession? What's recession when people are still flogging the shops!!! Singapore is really blessed and we should thank God for what He gives us.

2008-12-19T01:30:00.001+08:00

This is my LJ..people if you want to see certain locked posts, add me as friend k. http://divalicious90.livejournal.com/

2008-12-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]

2 I will say [b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."

3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.

4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,

6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.

7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.

8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-

10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;

12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.

16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

This is my devotion for the day. Hope that you will let God be your refuge and strength. You can tell HIm anything, anywhere, anytime He'll always be there. There are things that I can't tell people but God knows them. Sometimes I don't even have to tell Him and he plans everything for me, that's how great He is.

2008-12-16T17:24:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1 Year Anniversary My dear left knee!!!!! It has been 365 days of God's mercy and grace.

2008-12-03T13:42:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time my dear blog...my thoughts are everywhere and my life is so different right now. I guess only time will tell how I will change but some things will never change. My dearest gals...we are all finally 18!!!! Finally 18...that's how old we are and who will step onto the red carpet first? Sam is getting married soon and its was just like yesterday that he took over AAT.

There has been so many changes in my life and I did not even expect them coming. 51st Coy's camp just passed and I miss them so much!!! Never in my life did I expect myself to be part of GB but now I'm enjoying myself!!! Never in my life did I expect myself to host talent nite, but I just did it last Sat. Never in my life did I expect myself to feel deteched from salsa but now I feel that way...I miss the old days so much.

How will things change again...I will miss you dearest AAT...maybe it times I moved on...and to J, maybe the next time we see each other, you'll just be part of my memory. P.S I really hope that you will part of my future

2008-10-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

People of the world, I've been sick for the past week!!! To make things more interesting, I'm down with the same illness as Min Hui...woots...hiaz...feeling like crap but still have to study =(

The funnist thing happened at the market. I got chatted up by this stranger who said I look friendly and wanted to make friends with me. Hello, I'm sick and here comes this weird person...haha...joke of the day! I remember seeing him at the JE arcade before and the worst thing was that he was wearing the YAM t-shirt...weird right...don't know where he got it from. Anyways, it's the first time I got chatted up and it happened when I'm sick...haha

I want to get well soon!!! I want to dance soon!!!! Jia You Debra!

2008-09-02T23:27:00.001+08:00

This is my 1st poem that someone wrote for me. It's in Jap so I don't understand. It's his hardwork..so I think I should post it here:

戦いたくない、
微笑みたくない、
赤いドレスーを着ている君、
黒い着物を着ている暗闇、
僕は選べない、
足が進めない。

強く光を見えても、
その光は強すぎて、
僕の目は痛い。
綺麗な歌を聞けても、
その音は煩過ぎて、
僕の耳は痛い。

暗闇と光の中で歩いている、
突然に香りは鼻に入ていた。
遅いで瞳を開けて、
早い手を繋いで、
僕はこの悪夢から起きて、
君はずっと僕のそばにいた。

2008-09-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

I'm officially 18!!! Yeah....I can go to Union Square now! Hahaha...but I know my Mom sure won't allow de...weeps =( Nvm, I still felt very loved by my friends and family during my birthday =)

Here's the list of people who bothered to wish my :

By sms:
Huiling (dance)
Elynn(dance)
Florina(dance)
Sue Yee(RP)
Zi Ning(RP)
Min Hui(JCC)
Benedict(JCC)
Raymond(JCC)
Mindy(JCC)
Shermin(HuaYi)
Eyin(HuaYi)
Hui Min(HuaYi)
Oxy(HuaYi)
Michelle Ng(HuaYi)
Jamie(HuaYi)

Online:
Zoey(HuaYi)
Dao Qing(dance)
Cloudie(dance)
Vetri(dance)
Ms Lynn Ng(HuaYi)
Radience(JCC)

Face to face:
Mummy
Daddy
Ah Mah
Extended family
Project Joshua
Alaz
AAT
RP Social Dance
Justin(JCC BB)
Lek Wei(JCC BB)
Wen Wei(JCC BB)
Sach(JCC)
Stephanie snr(JCC)
Stephanie jnr(JCC)
Aunty EweEwe(JCC)
Aunty Susan(JCC)

Most important thing, He did wish me Happy Birthday...so...that's the happiest thing =) I'm easily contented

2008-08-25T23:29:00.002+08:00

My very 1st birthday present from a friend was from Hui Wen! Thanks so much darling and I will miss you when you are in Malaysia! Study hard k, it's the last week le! We'll go out as soon as you get back and do share with me your advantures during your family trip.

Almost died during dance training!!!! There was only 1 water break! The 2 hours felt like eternity! Fi placed me in both grp A and C which means I had to dance 2 rounds, once with Vetri and then with Ocean. Hiaz...tired but good training! Let's do it man, MUSE it only 2 months away! People pls come and watch k! For more details, pls approach me! What's an incentive if I sell all the tickets first? THat would be no warm ups for 1 week! Hhaha...DREAM ON!

I LOVE MY SCANDALS!!!!!! Today was the 1st celebration of my coming birthday and guess what, I have to run 10k tmr just to burn off all the calories! After the workout at Amore, Elynn and I went to meet Huiling. FYI, she waited for about 15 minutes! Haha, finally she knows how waiting for someone is like....hehe...payback time =) Then went to buy brownies at P.Osh. When they started acting secretive, I already suspected that they were buying the brownies for me but I acted like I didn't know....hehe =) Elynn thought that the guy making the brownies was cute...haha, not bad lah, but not my cup of tea =)

Dinner was at Plaza Sing's Cafe Cartel and we ordered alot of things to share. Going out with Huiling is like going out with a small kid! Haha, when she fiddled with the huge pork rib, we were so afraid it would just fly! I remember she once said that her spring chicken flew off her plate during etiquette lesson and she concluded that it was so because it's called spring chicken ( literal meaning)....hiaz...wonder what will happen when she has children...haha, I can just picture!

We had drinks and dessert at TCC. Elynn went out to make a call but she came back with a candle on the brownies!!!! ALthought i sort of guess the brownies were for me, but I was totally surprised and caught off guard. I was so touched that I almost burst into tears....SO SWEET OF THEM!!!!! Really thank you for tonight, I really felt loved! Hope we'll be friends till the end of time! LEt's see who gets married first...hehe

P.s I will be contented with just an sms birthday wish from you..you know who you are =)

2008-08-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

Holidays are here...but they are also going away soon....sadded =( What I'm been up to? Firstly, I now stay at my Grandma's house @ Tiong Bahru on weekdays cos my hse is under renovation....don't get silly ideas k! My hse doesn't need extra balconies and extra windows (this is what Isa said) Secondly, I've been living up my life by going to Amore! Whoohoo...long live women!

Hmm...have been thinking about some things lately. Do I really love him? Do I just like him of the feeling or loving someone who is distant? Do I like the feeling of so near yet so far? What if I know the real him, will I still love him the way I do? Well...up to yesterday, I was still confused but today...I feel that loving him is loving his flaws as well. I tell myself that I shouldn't care, but I get worried about him and afraid that he will get hurt. I know I'm stupid, stupid to the max....but...hiaz

I don't know where God will take me, but my life is transiting..I know =)

2008-08-08T14:37:00.002+08:00

Don't anyhow take Chinese medicine....if not you'll create more problem statements for me!

2008-08-04T16:05:00.002+08:00

Being a scientist....is crazy! I think there is a thin line between being amazed at God's creation and challenging God's creation. Cloning is one such thing.
Cloning is wrong but the technology can be useful...as in we can use the stem cells to make new organs for people who need them.

The Dolly experiment failed because of unknown knowledge...but now, we know why it failed...it was because of shorten telomeres and inactivated telomerase. We are now one step closer to learning the science behind aging but there are still many things unknown. We don't know how to turn "on" and "off" telomerase regulators and we don't know how to stop them from becoming cancerous.

Attaining immortality....that's not a very far fetched thinking...but do I want it? I don't want to live forever but I want to die beautiful...pls =)

2008-08-03T17:35:00.003+08:00

Min complained that I don't blog...haha, I'll try my best k! Congregulations to Josel and Huiling for passing their driving!!!! Hehe, now they can officially drive me around...hehe but that's if Huiling can get her hands on her dad's car =)
P.S I hope your dad gets the hint from the post it pad on the mirror...all the best!

Went to watch the fireworks display at Fairmont hotel last night. Though I was tired out from dance practice, but I still enjoyed the family gathering. My little 8 year old cousin is 30 kg and I calculated that I'm about 2x heavier than her! Hehe...that's an achievement! Besides that, I also found out that I'm the same weight as my 20 smthing year old male cousin!!! Hehe...cool man! Work harder girl...you can make the weighing scale your good friend...hehe =)

Reminder to self : Buy thank you cards for people who have donated to your GB card =)

Next up SISF, Reflections and year end Evengelism Concert...jia you!

2008-07-24T01:28:00.001+08:00

My little brother and I

2008-07-24T01:15:00.000+08:00

Social Dance IG is the love!

2008-07-24T00:19:00.001+08:00

The one carrying is my "di di!"

2008-07-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Have u all heard about Zacchaeus? Maybe not..but I heard he's short and mean!!!! Doesn't that remind you of Grumpy from the Seven Dwarfs? If anyone whom you know is like a loan shark who sucks your money, would you want him to come to a good ending or just go to hell? Hmm...if I would you, I rather he go to hell!

The thing is that Jesus chose to go to his house for dinner! Why? There were so many people out there for Jesus to eat with but yet, he chose the most SINFUL of them all! To us, Zacchaeus shouldn't have been chosen because, he just wasn't good enough! But to Jesus, it is the heart that counts. Hmm...you may be confused but it's actually a very logical reasoning. If you are a murder and you are given a chance to repent, won't you feel more grateful than someone who goes about his life normally? I think I would be! This was the heart that Zacchaeus had. He climbed all the way up to a tree just to meet Jesus and that was the sincerity that moved Jesus.

The bottom line is that Hese didn't come to massage the egos of religious people but to turn messy lives around. Some of our lives are low like Zacchaeus while others are trapped in more respectable but pointless existences. Jesus' whole purpose was to rescue people who would admit they needed rescuing and not to praise those who have lived a rightous life.

2008-07-20T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hmm...a few things have got me thinking these few days and it's changing my perception of life. Temporal life vs Eternal life...which one do I value more? The answer is obvious but I guess I've lost track of things. When I look at the life of Jesus and I look at mine, I can only say I pale in comparison. Should I blame on my own nature or the effects of this world? Have I really been blinded by the paper chase or carried too much weight on my shoulders? I guess I have too many identities that I've forgotten about my ultimate identity and that's in Christ. I guess BJ will tease me after reading this, but who cares, I'm proud to be Christian. I not holy but I strive to be. I'm not perfect cos this body isn't perfect. Who says Christians are holy? We still sin, we still fall short in everyway. But one thing is that we are always struggling to not cave into our sinful nature and we belive that Jesus will santify us. Life isn't a destination, it's journey. A normal life is already hard, a Christian life is even harder. Maybe some Christians you know, have let you down and have fallen below your expectations. One thing I want you to know is that I don't judge how you live your life, cos I'm in no position to judge. I'm sinful in everyway as you. To God, there's no big or small sin. It's just SIN.

After Thursday's lesson, I've kind of woken up and did a re anaylsis of my life and what I've putting inside of it. Love God is easy, cos he's perfect, but loving Man is hard cos whenever I pray, " Help me to love others," God always puts someone super hard to love infront of me! Right now, there are people like that in my life and I think that they are here to stay. I love because He first loved. This is who my God is, maybe one day He'll find you too. This is my life, hope that you've been blessed.

2008-07-17T08:17:00.002+08:00

I'm so HAPPY!!!! My Mummy surprised me with DURIANS!!!!! Somemore it's MAO SHAN WANG!!!!!!! MY FAVOURITE!!! I just mentioned to her the day before and she bought it the next day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

After much bugging from people, I've realised that people do actually read what I write...amazing isn't it? Seriously, I've been very very very lazy to move my fingers to blog....
Guess what....year 2 first sem is coming to an end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Time really waits for no man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to change class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I really love this class!!!!!!!!! Haha, I'll miss you guys! I'll miss the Korean exchange with Sue, my cow friend, the boss and the subordinate, energizer bunny Zining, random, late queen and online shopping buddy Karenn, ISA and gang! Though he's sometimes annoying, but Mr ROCKS will still be missed...hehe
Word to Adil" Please don't do any stupid things!!!! We don't want u to get into trouble!!! Be good k kental!"

One more thing : I hate today's FACI!!!! Suddenly, I miss Selena!!!!! Please come back! That new guy intimidates me!!! Help!

2008-05-26T23:16:00.002+08:00

Had an interesting conversation with Josel today during lesson time *hehe*...she's really the best man! We talked about Korean stuff like typing out Korean phrases, how to catch Korean guys and I showed her who Kim Hyun Jun of SS501 looked like. She says he looks like he jumped of a manga and I totally agree with her!!! Hyun Jun is so handsome yet delicate at the same time...too bad can't find a guy like that....actually found on that look like but I don't know him...so too bad =(

After that we started going into deeper topics...for those who know...you know what my deeper topics are like...esp Jun Hao =) Josel asked me to take back my heart so that I won't get easily hurt but I told her that I've given and it's hard to get it back. Anyway...she asked me to pray about it because God always has 3 answers, yes, no and wait! He had become my bad habit and I don't see myself breaking it anytime soon. How I wish someone can just help me to snatch back my heart from him and own it himself. Someone who really cheishes my heart and not hack care like he does. Maybe this way, I'll break the habit faster and I'll be able to move on from his shadows....

2008-05-18T23:21:00.003+08:00

I'm still affected because of Mark...I need a bodyguard!!!!

I'm going to get a higher GPA than Reuel Heng so that I don't have to face Mark
I don't want to explain why I block him on MSN!
He's not sane
Even Leon's afraid of him
Don't ever appear outside my class again!
I don't want to remember what happened!

2008-05-18T23:02:00.002+08:00

Min Hui lost her voice today...finally silence...whahaha....no lah!!!! Of course I'm not that mean...I miss her loud voice and her love of calling her own name...CHONG MIN HUI!

My Loves:
CHONG MIN HUI
Josel Soh
Kao Hui Wen
Charis Chang ( MIss u!)
Kao Hui Ling
Juliana Tan
Yup Xiu Feng

ESP: Project Joshua!!!!!

I miss the company after PJ, after all the church activities....esp getting the cheap thrill out of teasing each other , like the favourite question, " When are u getting married?" Haha...and also touching Josel and Min Hui's chins cos I know they don't like it! This is how close we have grown and I don't ever want it to change. Josel and I used to be just church mates...then through PJ we became friends and now we're SISTERS!!!!

This is just random : J isn't in Singapore...God bring him back safetly! Oppa, nomu pogoshiposo!

2008-05-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

For the first time in the 17 and a half years of my life, I have gone shopping ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOHOOOO....I've done something I've never done before and I'm proud of it! *pat on the back* It felt a bit weird at first when there's no one beside you, no one to wait for and no one to talk to, no one to remind you that you shouldn't keep spending and no one to ask , " Should I buy?"

Actually this shopping alone stint isn't my idea but it was somehow the matter of circumstances that it took place. Mommy had to go to HYATT for wedding lunch reception while I was left with Daddy after my physiotherapy at Mount Alvernia Hospital. I knew Daddy doesn't like shopping but doesn't mind waiting but I liked shopping but mind people waiting so I suggested I went shopping while he went to look at his books. The bad thing is the company is gone but the good thing is that I get money to shop...so life is 2 sides of coin.

Conclusion : Used up Daddy's money plus a little of NETS, bought 2 dresses and 1 bikini and got discounted for 1 dress...yipee..that's for being polite and nice to the shop lady! So listen to your Mommy when she always tells u to say pls and thank you, it works to get you a discount! Plus, a little sa jiaoing does the trick!

Shopping alone is refreshing, but I still like to do it with friends...cos that's one the reasons what they are for!

2008-04-27T16:18:00.000+08:00

I think my last post of emo...but who cares...it's part of my life too. Rev.Chang's spiritual formation class was very meaningful and it taught me alot about how God works and the power of his voice. Rev Chang talked about how this guys who cared alot about money was moved by God's word. I can't remember what that verse was but it was really amazing. I too can testify as God himself spoke to me....I feel so loved..wheee

When I say God spoke to me, it doesn't mean that he literally spoke but he spoke through his work and that is the Bible. God opened my heart to all my hidden feelings on Sat morning when I was doing quiet time with Him. Why I say hidden feelings is because I have been having these kind of feelings hidden in me for a very long time. I didn't want to let other people know and I didn't want to acknowlege them. I used to think that I was a very positive person but God showed me that his arms where always there to hold me when I need Him. The passage I was reading on was about Jesus's baptism and then his temptation in the desert. I didn't really understood what God was trying to say through this passage at first but I got it when I read the study on this passage.

What the study said was that Jesus went through all that pain and suffering just like any of us. He was God but he understood the pain of men...this is how amazing out God is. He isn't just that high and mighty God that sits on his throne in heaven and just commands us to love and obey him. He, in all his glory stoop down right to my level to understand me and my pain. When I realised that, I broke down into tears..I really really cried and it was the uncontrollable type. That is how wonderful and powerful our God is.

Why it touched me was because I thought no one knew the pain of not dancing. I felt that no one on the earth understood the pain of loosing something you love so much. All of them just thought that dance was just dance and period...but to me, it was like loosing everything. My parents doesn't really understand my love for dance, they just know I love it but they don't understand my passion for it. People would just say ," So just stop dancing for a while." but they never know how it feels to watch others dance knowing that you can't do it yourself.

I used to not be able to answer the question, " Why are you still a Christian?" but now I know how to. It's not just because He first loved me, but also because he knows my pain, knows the real me but still love me just as I am. AMEN

2008-04-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy!!!!! Cos his handphone wall paper isn't his gf but a little girl!!!! Hahaha...to those who don't understand...I'm not gonna explain...so too bad...wanna know...come ask me yourself loh....but I'm so happy...thanks "spy" for all your hardwork...you're my best "sister"!

Today was BB enrolement and the junior boys were so cute!!!! Just like my little GB girls..all whom I want to pinch!!!! They did their thing again by saying "Amen, Amen, Amen," before Dr.Rev said the benediction...awww...so cute! Seriously, I thought I would see alot of "him" today, but I didn't...cos he was super duper late! My mood really dampened when I didn't see him and it rose again when I saw him...I really hate him for making me feel this way! Everytime I want to let him go, I just can't bare to cos I just can't seem to find another that is as perfect as he is. I know he isn't perfect, but I love him just the way he is. I usually go for hunks but he's the exception...I'm just like Oh Soo Jung!!!!! Oh Soo Jung usually goes for rich man but she loves only Karl. I usually go for good-lookers but I love "him"...hiaz what an IRONY!

SLA fest is just round the corner and there are still so many loose ends left to tied up...then there's Pulse Anniversary Dinner on Sat and then there's Groovy Nite @ Upper Club and Caderas said that they will be going!!!! So packed...but that's the life of a Singapore, Christian, Student, Daughter, Dancer, Friend, GB volunter and so on....I have too many identities...too many responsibilities till my love life..is DOA!!!! I'M TIRED OF CARRYING MY OWN LAPTOP, I'M TIRED OF ALWAYS BEING THE ONE WHO HAS THE CRUSH, I WANT HIM TO WANT ME LIKE I WANT HIM! If one day, I turn up in church with a guy, I wonder how "he" will react? I think he won't ba...cos I think his heart doesn't have a place for me...I don't want to set my hopes too high, cos I'll fall too hard...I've tried that and it hurts...I'm afraid to get hurt...cos I've no more tears left to cry...

2008-04-06T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hiaz...I really don't know if this is good or bad..I don't know to laugh or to cry...cos there's good and bad to it. I've been holding onto "him" for a very long time and maybe it's time to let go. It's positive because I can use this opportunity to move on. It's bad it hurts and I don't want to let go....it always feels like I'm back to square one. I have my options but I keep turning them down because I always compare "him" to them and they just don't match up...maybe I'm just trying to find another "him".

My love life is DOA( dead on arrival) so I'm just gonna concentrate on Spritutal formation, Kingdom Living, Dance and GB...the rest...I'll just leave it to God.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths" Proverbs 3: 5-6

2008-03-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

Ok, this happened on Sat evening but it's still worth blogging about cos the after math of it is still there. Went for post Bailamos party at SMU on Sat evening and the theme was......*drum roll*....PYJAMAS!!!!! Haha..the day before when Huiling told me about it over the phone I just couldn't believe it...but they are Caderas Latinas so anything is possible! Haha....seriously...cos their favourite game is "suck and blow" hehe...sounds dirty right....tsk tsk dirty minded people but it's not lah...just that u have to pass cards from one person to another using your lips by sucking and blowing....haha and one of the Caderas accidently gave away her first kiss because of that game! (Note: this didn't happen during the party though)

BJ really left a deep impression man.....hiaz...by being the naughtiest person in my group!!!!! Haha...having sex in the school toilet...pls lah thanks to you now outside the toilets there are cameras...not only that the cameras are almost everywhere...like prision sia!!!!! Anyway, enough about that, cos I'm moving on to the hot guys!!!!! Yipee...but most of them have girlfriends already...even Jerry who we thought was the most gay! Haha...but wish him happiness man! The person that I couldn't keep my eyes off was Douglas. I noticed him right from the start at last year's SISF (Singapore International Salsa Festival) for his amazing footwork and charisma on the stage. He looks as if he owns it and that's what I love about him. The second time I saw him was at Bailamos en la Calle (Dancing on the Streets in Spanish) at DXO organised by SMU. He professionalism just attracted me plus he has a great physic to boot! BUt one thing bad about him was that we feel that he's a flirt. The way he touches the girls and hugs them...too intimate for us underage people ba. Anway, a good salsa dancer is admired by many and I just got to accept that fact. Hope to see them again soon....

2008-02-29T14:19:00.000+08:00

I feel like a zombie today...don't know why just feel so tired....maybe cos partied too hard yesterday..haha =) I LOVE GROOVE REPUBLIC & SMU'S CADERAS LATINAS!!!!!!!! Bailamos en la Calle was a success, fantasic job everyone! Saw many hunks and babes yesterday at DXO and the place was super pack! I could hardly see any familiar faces and so sorry to those who I didn't say hi to. Steph introduced her guy friends to us and we taught them how to dance Salsa..haha basics only la...like basic step, girls right turn, guys left turn and cross body lead. Haha...it's so fun teaching and learning together..haha. The only disappointment was not being able to free- style cos of the crowd and my knee. Although I can dance abit but I dare not take any chances, I don't want it popping out again cos I need to train for the next performance. Talking about hunks, each of us juniors had an eye candy or eye candies...e.g Lyana had her nerd guy who she thinks is cute, I had my tall guy from Caderas who can dance super well and Huiling, hiaz...she has so many of them...e.g Aaron and I don't know who else. I wanted to go up to my eye candy and praise him for his mind blowing performance but I just didn't have the chance. But I think I will have more chances to get to know him, e.g SISF 08 hmmm...Groove Republic, our goal is to be like Caderas Latinas or even better!!!!! We need guys too!!!!!! TRAINING STARTS SOON!

2007-12-26T11:18:00.000+08:00

As some of you may know, I've dislocted my knee so I can't walk normally. I don't really know why it happened but I just know that God allowed it to happen. I don't know how I managed to withstand the pain without fainting, but I know that God was merciful and allowed it to happen when I have my friends around me. I really am thankful to all my church friends for supporting me, esp, MinHui who supported my back when I couldn't move, Sabrina for holding my hand, Lynnest for talking to me, Jason for attending to me, Hui Wen for worrying for me, Mindy for informing my parents and all the others who was praying for me.

The first day when I got back home, I was very sad as my parents kept discouraging me from dancing. I wasn't angry with them...but just sad. But while I was having my dinner, I was just flipping through my organiser and God showed my this verse, "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength,"

I don't know where God wants to take me, but I'm thankful for the people that he has placed at my side to encourage and to help me. I'm very grateful to my parents for really showing me how much they love me. If not for them, I would really feel so helpless. I also want to thank the people that came to visit me and most of them caught me by surprise.

Thanks Eyin, Jamie and Michelle, my cell members and all the Uncles and Aunties for coming to visit me. I thank Shermin for wanting to visit me and I pray that her Father will get well soon.

2007-12-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

Ok, to you it wasn't harsh and I've explained to you my point of view. I feel that both parties are in the wrong but I've come to realise that everything was just a small misunderstanding over stupid cup noodles that blew up because of not nipping the problem at it's bud. Maybe this is just a point in our lives that is there to test our friendship and how well we know one another. I guess, we don't know each other quite well and thus it led to so many problems. But just one thing I want to clarify, "We care about the friendship and we don't want to just let it go."

2007-12-11T16:24:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I've updated and many things have changed. Life is full of changes sometimes good, sometimes bad, but one thing is for sure, we must move on with our heads held high. The thing I want to do now is just focus on my dance and not invovle myself with politics. Why can't you just let me dance, why must you be such a pain in the ass? Anyway, I will not give up my passion for dance but don't force me into the corner, or you'll be sorry! I may be nice, but don't push it, I don't want things to turn ugly.Why don't I want to update my blog? Cos I'll be washing dirty linen in public. I don't want people to lose face for the things they do. I'm amazed at how some people can bluff themselves about certain realities about themselves.

Friends are people I treasure and I don't want to get them hurt but sometimes, it's just inevitable. I don't blame anyone for the change but I just find it a pity. To me, it's just childish to fight over who's going with who for breakfast. But I think that there are some misunderstandings that need to be sorted out. Things may not go back the way that they were, but at least we will still be friends. Chanel, don't you find your post to Phylis a bit too harsh? To you, Phylis is in the wrong. But why did Phylis get so worked up, it's because she really cares about our friendship. We were close once and know you are saying that you don't care what she thinks, isn't that a bit too unfeeling? Whatever it is, we care about this friendship.

2007-10-25T00:51:00.000+08:00

HuiLing and I @ Gelare

2007-10-25T00:50:00.001+08:00

2007-10-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

Ice Lemon Tea

2007-10-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

Junior....

2007-10-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

SISF rocks!

2007-10-23T23:46:00.001+08:00

2007-10-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

Huiling, Mi and Alice

2007-10-18T22:46:00.000+08:00

The whole class kena scolded by Faci today....damm suay can!!!! Okok...it's our fault lah but kena scolding also not nice right! From today's scolding I can see that she's a very passionate Faci and she really wants all of us to do well. What went wrong today? I think change of team = new team dynamics = different working style = cannot adjust! It was suppose to be a good day, but she totally ruined it, I don't blame her, just feel a bit ke xi lah! But I don't think I can love this new class as much as my old class, I just don't know why.....W46D will always be in my heart, you'll never be replaced!

Went to eat lunch with Huiling and saw CZ. Haha...I pointed him out to Huiling but she kept mixing him up with another guy...haha she's so funny! After we left the E1 food court, we saw him at outside near the pushcarts. I managed to catch his attention and I smile and waved a hello to him. He smiled back!!!!!! Ahhh....so charming sia!!!!! Haha....even Huiling also agree...hehe hope to see him tomorrow. Finally a hot guy that knows me haha =) Smile for me again please!

Singapore International Salsa Festival countdown= 1 day!!!!!

2007-10-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Chanel Jones Lynn Jing Xue!!!!!! You're finally 17...ahhh...I'm older sia!!!! Wish you all the happiness in the world and friends forever!!!!!!

Met darling Phylis earlier today as her poor lappy crash on her...so sad =( Brought it to the Hospital (IT Help desk) but...cann't save!!!! Hardware spoil so must go back to mummy ACER. Poor Phylis, mommy ACER is at Jurong leh, my house there...super far for you!!!! So no choice loh, had to go to ITRC to borrow lappy. They gave us the Toshiba one which looked like a toy!!!! It took like ages to boot up and finally when there was an error, we were delighted...why....cos can change to better one...hehe =) So in the end, Phylis took an Acer one. Go ITRC but no Penguin...hiaz....why sia...why eye candy wasn't there!!!

I have many eye candies in school but I've never really liked them. I've been liking someone for a very long time. When I see you looking at me, I feel like time has stopped. You saw me when I was in the most embarassing moment. I long to be in your arms; I've never stopped liking you. I did send you a birthday sms but only to find out that you have changed your number. I like you but I don't feel secure. Sometimes I feel that you are near, sometimes I feel that you are very far away. There are times when you are so near, yet so far! I thank you for the memories cos I'm letting you go...will I regret it?